Today I begin a new thing. I start my schooling. Okay, it’s not a four year program, or even a 2 year program. Right now it is only an 8 week program, hoping to extend into a 24 week program when I’ve got a few weeks gone and can prove both to myself and the director that I can do this.
I’m scared.
I haven’t done schooling in a very, very long time. Last time I did school I was not the best of students. I tried about 15 years ago to go to the local community school, but I just wasn’t ready for it, and I dropped out. I had too much going on in my life : raising a child as a single parent, deep depression, being newly single… the list goes on. I just simply wasn’t ready. Before that was beauty school. I’ll admit I was a pretty good student there. I got good grades, and I graduated near the top of my class there. Hummm, OKAY maybe I wasn’t all that bad of a student after all when I stop to think about it all. But high school, OMG, I was the worst of the worst. Study habits were non-existent. I had no respect for the teachers, or my peers.
Today is yesterdays tomorrow. I’m trying again. I can and I will succeed. I may be scared, but with God’s help, I can do this.
#3goodthings
1) someone believes in me enough to fund my going to school
2) taking a hot shower when people around the world don’t have water
3) having good friends who love me and whom I love back
Whispers Of Happiness 